The following is a letter that the Lord wanted me to write to my father. I was also prompted to put in on my blog. If is speaks to your heart, believe that it was meant for you too.
Dad,
I'm writing this letter in order to get thoughts out that have been on my heart. After you have time to process this, I welcome a conversation.
I know life has been stressful. I can see it in your eyes. Grandma, Grandpa, Wes... all the details that go with that, including your own health, it's all boiled down to more than you can handle. Then add in everyday life activities of having a young family. It's okay to break down. It's okay to grieve. It's okay to ask for help. You are not suppose to carry all of this responsibility. You were never meant to be under this much stress. However, you will continue to live like this.
Unless you give up. I don't mean give up on life or on activities or even give up on health and happiness. I mean to give everything up to God. Give Him your worries, your plans, your ideals, your health, your family's health. Give Him your time, your attention, your love. He is waiting. He wants you to lean on Him if not let Him carry you. He wants to give you a hope. He wants to give you joy, peace, patience. He wants to be in the center of your life. He wants to be in control.
Circumstances in life will not change, but God can change you. He can change the source of your hope. He can become the rock you stand on.
He longs for you to make this desicion. It can be intimidating to give up control, but when you do there is a sense of peace that you will remember forever.
You don't have to change before God will take your worries. He wants to take them now. You don't have to know everything about leaning on Him, you don't have to do everyting perfect the first time. He accepts you the way you are. He loves you as you are. He will speak to you in the future about what to do. You just have to listen. (and that takes practice.)
So what do you need to do today?
*Confess to God that you don't want to, nor can you, live like this anymore.
* Apologize for doing this on your own for so long and ignoring His call.
* Confirm that He is God. He is powerful enough to handle your life circumstances.
* Believe that Jesus came and lived a similar life of pain and that He died, on the cross, so that you could have a relationship with Him.
* Ask Him to come take control. Take your worries, your fears and replace it with His peace and understanding.
*Thank Him for interceeding in your life. For doing the things you just requested.
* Thank Him for loving you.
* Ask Him to guide you through life.
Dad,
If you sincerly went through the above mentioned points, know that you are now a child of God's. That means He is your heavenly father. And He loves you just as much as a father loves His children. Also know that you will spend eternity in Heaven.
God coming into your life is a gift. You don't need to do anything to earn His love. He already loves you more than you can fathom. He just wants to spend time with you. In prayer, through the Bible and sometimes through other people who have the same faith.
You don't have to worry about anything now.
